But if I understand that I am consciousness how could I possibly create or accept an explanation which implies that I am nothing?!
It's clearly obvious that I am something!!
Am I to believe that I'm nothing more than a pre-determined reaction, a machine, that I have no power whatsoever?
If it were so, how can it be possible for me to even think about or reason about myself and life?! A coincidence?
According to the present world-view consciousness is an anomaly.
Surely the materialistic-deterministic view is self-contradictory, a fallacy.
Anyway how can I accept an explanation which says that my life has no meaning. That WOULD be quite a downer.
But if my life did have a meaning, it would imply that there is something behind it all, something beyond the apparent material reality. It feels interesting.
Is there really a choice to be made here? Meaning or no meaning? I certainly don't feel that way.
Conscioussness is a irrefutable fact, real, but the materialistic view isn't. The materialistic view is formed,created and seen through conscioussness and therefore it is not possible for this or any other view of life to question the active role of conscioussness. Any view who does nullifies itself.
When the materialistic view falls very much of the so called knowledge we have gathered so far falls with it.
So here we stand without an understanding of ourselves and life. How does it feel? What is there to do?
Our consciousness is very confused by the differing explanations presented and pretty much accepted during childhood.
See how all the religions, ideologies, nationalities and millions of isms have been creating all the misery and confusion in the world all through the history of mankind.
But since it gives some superficial security and comfort to cling to an explanation shared by people in the environment most people do and couldn't care less about understanding themselves and life.
So surely, if I truly wish to understand myself and life, I cannot do it by creating illusory structures in my mind. On the contrary, it is these structures that hinders my understanding.
Clean up time! To come to a real understanding I must see life clearly for myself, without any distorting concepts. Everyone can do it.
EoR - Essence of Reality - You must definitely check this site out! It has no comparison! Completely free.
Krishnamurti Foundation - I highly recommend Krishnamurti, although he's more difficult to understand than EoR's maker.